added entry to drawing challenge

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 I also realise now that her head looks pretty much exactly 90 degrees turned around, which is unnatural. In retrospect, I should have erased some of the jaw line at the very least. Oh well!
 
 To be honest, half the reason I didn't finish this today was because I still have other stuff to do, and it's getting late, lol. But there's also no point obsessing over details, especially when I barely know how to draw these details. In the coming days, I should try to do more to learn those. Hands, for example...
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+## Day 20: those weird things at the ends of my arms
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+<span class="date-marker">2026-02-25, 21:51</span>
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+I dared tackle the big topic today that I've been avoiding for weeks. *Hands*.
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+<SubtitledImage
+    image="20.webp"
+    altText="Pencil sketches of five hands in different poses. The drawing is dated 2026-02-25."
+    subtitle="hands can look SO cool if they're drawn well. these are not (but they're getting there)"
+    alignment="right" />
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+I followed [this mikeymegamega tutorial](https://youtu.be/xV3PmbBU9c0) on drawing hands and just followed along trying to draw all of the hands he drew. They didn't turn out perfectly and that, naturally, did feel a little discouraging. However, just like with the heads, it gave me pretty good baseline for how to view hands as a drawing subject (like what to pay attention to and whatnot), and I feel better prepared for drawing hands now than I did before. Very cool!
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+In the beginning of the video, he said *"You probably hit a stage where you're hiding the hands behind the back of your character"* and OOF... that hit hard tbh
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+Hand 1 has pretty thick fingers, but it was my first try so whatever. Hand 4's fingers might be a little short? I definitely fucked up hand 5, but that was mostly due to not leaving enough space on the A5 sheet, so I had to squish it into the top right corner, and I ended up drawing the fingers too short as a result. I think hand 3 is my favourite, especially after drawing in thicker 'final' lines (which I only did for hands 3 and 4).
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+Went pretty well! No idea what I'll do tomorrow, but it's going well. If I'm really daring, I'll do another character (that'll hopefully take less time...) and try to add some cool hands. Jazz hands would be funny ngl
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+Oh a bit of a tangent: I do have to say that I felt a little down today. There were a lot of good things today: I'm virtually sickness-free, I wore a cool new outfit and felt very gen-Z-internety in it so I listened to I Love My Computer by Ninajirachi on the bus and felt even more in my element, and the weather was super nice today as well. I even met up with friends!
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+But I wanted to show one of my friends, the artsy one, my drawings today. I don't see her super often so I wanted to use the chance. I was actually really excited to do so because obviously I've put quite a lot of time into these drawings and I'm quite proud of especially what I've managed to accomplish in this short time, and I like sharing that. But she wanted me to show them off while we were busy doing something else entirely, to which I told her something along the lines of *"I'll show you when we have the time for it"* because I wanted to take my time with that rather than rush through the sketches. I ended up not being able to show her my drawings, but she still gave me the advice to *study anatomy*.
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+That felt pretty discouraging. She hadn't even seen my drawings, doesn't know what or how I am drawing, and gave me pretty boilerplate advice as a result. I guess it's not too dramatic, but it still didn't feel great.
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+But I'm fine now. In fact, I just looked at my drawing from [two days ago](#day-18) again, and that made me feel really good. I'm *so happy* about that drawing in particular and my progress in general. *I created these drawings!!* How cool is that?? AI images could never evoke the joy in me that I am feeling when I look at my sketches.